Last Friday made 5 months of no dating. Whoopty do. I should probably more pleased with myself, but it's getting to where this feels like one more deadline to meet. I didn't start out this round to require myself to go all 6 months. Now I'm so close, I feel like I should try to make it.
Loneliness has a way of sneaking in. A couple of weeks ago, I decided to sign up for online dating. A friend had recommended a site where she met someone. It's free, so I didn't have much to lose.
A couple of my best photos and witty comments later, I had a profile. I've gotten messages from scammers and those who only want sex. But I've also chatted with a couple of nice people. Getting to know someone takes time, so we'll see if it goes anywhere.
In the back of my head is this nagging thought that I'm supposed to be growing closer in my walk with God during this time. I have to confess that has not happened like it should.
I've been busy surviving school. My daily devotion time has felt rushed. Another day and another box checked.
As I wind down the semester, I see that month of free time stretching out ahead of me threatening lonely weekends and empty dance cards. Instead of dwelling on what could be or what isn't, I need to find a way to focus on time with my kids and quiet time.
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