Are You Really Listening?

I feel like I'm being retested this week.

Last week I felt like God was saying, "Listen," and that I got the message to keep leaning in. But this week it's like I'm being tested again on the material covered last week. It's like God is asking if I really meant what I shared.

I do. Or I think I do.

Am I really failing that miserably that I need to be retested?

In a discussion this week with my mom, she reminded me that God is the only one we can count on. People will disappoint us. I assured her that I understood that but that I want my person - the one who holds me close at the end of a bad day. 

She reminded me that my person will still irritate or disappoint me just like she gets frustrated with my dad. Even after 43 years of marriage, there are bumps in the road. People get tired and tempers get short and feelings get hurt.

So am I turning to God when I'm lonely and scared and I can't reach my person?