It's feast or famine.
How you noticed how when you are looking for someone to date, there is no one around? Yet, here I am trying to be single, and men are finding me.
Maybe it's the challenge of an unavailable woman that appeals to them and their need to win. Maybe they are genuinely interested in me. I believe if the later is the case, then they will be around in four more months. But that doesn't necessarily make them the right person for me.
I do know that I'm not ready. I've been keeping a log of how I feel about men the last two months. I can see where I am still a roller coaster of emotions where men are concerned. Every couple of weeks, my attitude varies between thinking I might be ready to open my heart again to being content to be single until my kids are grown and possibly longer.
I know that hurt is still lurking somewhere deep inside. Last week showed me that. There are still some wounds that need time to heal.
I have also realized that I've been filling my time the last few months by staying busy. The activities keeping me busy are positive, but it's not leaving me the time I need to spend with God. So my goal for the next four months is to carve out more time for my relationship with Him.
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