What Now?

Thursday was rough. After our break-up conversation, my guy unfriended me on FaceBook. I had to block him so I wouldn't be tempted to keep looking at his page even though there wasn't much for me to see. I removed pictures of us from my phone. My heart ached as I looked at two smiling, happy people and wondered how everything had changed in a week and a half. 

I made it through yesterday without any tears. When you have children, there isn't much time to sit and dwell on things. Or even be alone with your thoughts for long before someone interrupts them needing something.

Today I had a rough moment when I saw he resigned from our last Words with Friends game. I know it's just a game, but it was about more than that. How does someone go from loving you to completely shutting you out of their life?

What now?

I'm not sure when I will be ready to date again. I have resisted letting my heart get involved for so long. Getting it crushed when I put myself out there doesn't help. 

I'm tired of the cliches from well-intentioned friends and family. 

"God has someone else in mind for you."

"Praise God that he's preparing the right person."

On some level I get it and I want to believe it, but today I'm struggling. 

I'm not going to try 6-Months-No-Dating again. I can see a month-long or longer manbattical though. I've got plenty to keep me busy the next few weeks between finishing this semester, moving, and getting my kids ready for the new school year.

Speaking of my kids, I have frosting to make for our cake. Life goes on. I will keep going too.