A friend tried to set me up with someone new back in August. I wasn't quite ready and had to let go of some hurt to put myself out there again.
And then I found myself waiting.
My initial hesitance caused him to pause. And even after deciding I was ready to move forward, he had cold feet.
This week he finally decided to be all in too. Until he wasn't.
He received some troubling news related to his family. I sympathize greatly. It's news that would upset me too. But with this troubling news, he has retreated. He warned me that he probably would.
I get that people deal with problems in different ways. I've tried to give space for him to sort through his emotions. I have things going on too, but he's not checking on me. He can find time to post on FaceBook but not text me.
Once again I find myself silently waiting and wondering where I fit in.
The truth is, he's telling me that I don't fit in. He's showing me who he is. He may be an overall nice guy, but right now he's treating me like a doormat.
I deserve better.
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