6-Months-No-Dating {EPIC FAIL....and I Don't Care}

A month ago I reached the halfway mark and thought I had broken my two-week cycle of getting out of something that felt like dating. 

Well, I was wrong. 

It started as lunch and grew into something more. But I decided not to buck things and just go with the flow.

Does this mean I gave up on God? Hardly. Does it mean I need a man more than God? Not at all. 

Honestly, I was struggling with an existential crisis. Turning 40 and not being where I want to be in life hit me harder than I would like to admit. I didn't want to be alone for my birthday (even though my friend and I didn't do anything super special for my birthday because I spent it with family). 

There are times in life when you want or need an actual person. I needed one and he was there. 

Am I using him? I would say no because I am genuinely interested in him. I couldn't spend much time alone with a guy unless I could see potential for more. Yet, there is some nagging feeling in the back of my mind that maybe I'm overlooking something I shouldn't. Maybe that's traces of the old relationship still lingering. 

Perhaps that tingling feeling is my subconscious telling my head what my heart doesn't want to hear. 

Motivation Monday {Mending a Broken Heart}

18 The Lord is close to the brokenhearted
    and saves those who are crushed in spirit. - Psalm 34:18

One day you wake up and that dull ache in your heart is gone. One day you realize you no longer miss them the way you used to. One day you realize that God has given you new hope

Thank you, God, that one day is finally here. 

6-Months-No-Dating {Halfway There}

Today marks three months since I made the decision not to date. It has been a bumpy ride, but I finally seem to have broken free from my roller coaster two-week cycle. I have made my boundaries clear to the men in my life and I'm sticking with it!

Friday Reflections {Are You Weary or Renewed?}

Have you taken time this week to rest in God? Are you feeling renewed today or weak and weary?

Motivation Monday {Running the Race}

But those who hope in the Lord
    will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
    they will run and not grow weary,
    they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31 NIV

Some days we find ourselves physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually worn down. Sometimes it's because one trickles down to the other. Early mornings mean being physically and mentally drained which can lead to being emotionally drained. Sometimes it seems to be piling on, threatening to overwhelm and pull you under.

Find a moment, especially on these overwhelming days, to lean into God and rest.

Close your eyes a moment. Feel that?

Soak in His love. Renew your strength. Find a way to keep pressing on.

6-Months-No-Dating {Holding Pattern}

It appears that I am in a terrible rut. 

Every two weeks I find myself breaking a relationship with a man that I never intended to get into. 

How does someone who isn't supposed to be dating keep ending up in something that feels like dating? I explain up front that I'm not dating right now. Maybe it's the man's need to prove himself that he keeps pursuing and keeps pushing.

I admit I've been feeling lonely and weak. So how do I avoid getting sucked into something that's not really what I want and avoid feeling lonely?

How do I break out of this holding pattern that is keeping me from moving closer to where I need to be? Thankfully, grad school is about to start again. Between my homework and my kids' homework, I won't have time to think about being lonely.

Friday Reflections {Who Is Directing Your Path?}

What path are you on? And who are you following there? Are you headed in the right direction?